bro basically are you aware of the problem of white knighting "personal freedoms" and being a black nationalist? the internally colonized are not afforded personal freedoms, that's why your average person who's really mad about wire tapping and the patriot act is white. the colonizer is obsessed with the "rules" he has invented for his society but has happily not applied to the colonizer.
i don't get it, bro. like with the military, i don't think you have to be a marxist to get why that shit is not intelligent or worthwhile defending.
Is your girlfriend your daughter's mother? If she is, and if you're really going to enlist, you two need to get married, otherwise you have to get used to the idea that you won't be around to raise your daughter at all, and will just be sending checks or wiring money monthly. If you do get married to your daughter's mother, you'll be with them when you're not on deployment. I don't think you should do it. I'm friends with a lot of guys on the inside, lots of them had failed marriages and kids they only send child support payments to. It fucks them up just as bad as all the other shit everyone else has to deal with. Like being in totally pointless, boring situations for 14 hour work days, or the time on deployment marked by being in a constant state of hypervigilance because the possibility of violence or death is present. You can't know if you won't get PTSD, but I can tell you that enlistment is going to profoundly change the person you are.
3. I don't think I should call myself a communist unless I advocated a communist economy, but as it is I'm more of an anarchist without adjectives. I expect people to try communism in an anarchist society, as I expect them to try all manner of other economic systems. I'm personally not afraid of money or the market if it (and society as a whole) is structured in a way that is beneficial to the people, rather than dehumanising. And I feel that if I am willing to accept the potential existence of money and the market, it doesn't seem at all suitable to refer to myself as a communist, even though I would also probably embrace a communist economy, if it could be made to work and if it could be organised in such a way as to benefit the people. It would depend entirely on the state of society at that time, whether or not this or that economic system would be feasible; I expect the most suitable economic system to change over time, as society itself develops.
